When I started writing the first posts for this blog, and when I nearly wasn’t allowed to send them out, I got thinking about what the limits are for prisoners. This is a question which probably means a lot more to those doing long sentences and, as a lifer, it definitely means a lot to me.
I figure that if the parole board aren’t ready to let me go yet, and I have no idea when they will be ready, I only really have two options. I could sit back and wait it out, sleeping my sentence and my life away, or I could take control of my own life and actually do something with it. I could let the restrictions that the prison service puts on me stop me from bettering myself and from helping others, or I could work around (and within) those restrictions to actually do something positive.
At the recent memorial service for Nelson Mandela, Barack Obama said that “Ideas cannot be chained by prison walls” and it has long been said that there is one thing stronger than all the armies in the world; and that is an idea whose time has come. Well, you know what, I’ve had enough of my conscience telling me how much negativity I’m responsible for without creating a bit of positivity to balance it out. I’ve had enough of listening to myself moan about how unfair it is that I’ve spent so long in jail when most of that time could have been used so much more constructively. I’ve had enough of feeling bad for people less fortunate than me and then feeling even worse about not doing anything to help them.
The time has come to do something about it. And I’ve got an idea…