Happy Valentine’s

As if I didn’t spend my life wondering what could have been anyway, I had to go and meet the most amazing woman I’ve ever known whilst in jail.

It never was what it could have been, and it was over before it started. But not knowing what could have developed kills me more than anything. Actually that’s wrong. I can cope with not knowing right now. What I find harder is knowing that I’ll never find out. But I guess that’s just one more regret that I’ll have to learn to live with.

Happy Valentine’s everyone.

2 thoughts on “Happy Valentine’s

  1. I found myself in a similar situation, i didn’t go into the mansion looking for love, i went in to work so i could pay my bills, but never the less it found me anyway. Occasionally shit does happen! it’s not the first time and by no means will it be the last time. It’s not been easy, I’ve lost a hell of a lot because of it, but i wasn’t having anybody telling me who i can or can’t fall in love with or have a relationship with; It is what it is regardless. Were now out of the closet so to speak and are allowed contact by letter and phone calls. Were waiting and praying that I’ll be allowed to visit him soon? I can’t say what will happen in the future or how once he’s released our life together will work out? but can’t that be said about every relationship? Que sera sera. But i couldn’t live with “what if’s” i need to know how our story ends, we both do. And as hard and heartbreaking as it is falling for someone who’s doing time; i don’t regret a thing.

    • I know what you mean completely. Sometimes you just need to know. If it’s not as you hoped, at least you can deal with that, if it is as you hoped then brilliant, but not knowing one way or the other can be torture.

      I’m glad things are working out for the two of you. Sometimes some of the most beautiful things grow out of the darkest places.

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